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BLEEDIN' PURPS&GOLD
BLEEDIN' PURPS&GOLD
Okayes, so today was basically... yeah. Not the best. Only the Laker game, but I didn't even have the chance to watch it >:[
My mind has gotten me into a lot of trouble. This past week, I've been trying to silence it and just live the moment. It worked.. most of the time. But unfortunately, my mind is in whack right now/once again. I am an idiot. Why hope if there's 90% chance that your hopes won't be fulfilled? Hope for anything that would end this... Optimism and somewhere else than here is where I want to be, but it's just not gonna happen to me. It's hard to admit that time is just gonna keep going; it doesn't stop for anyone. It's hard to admit that you've made a mistake and the consequence is permanent. I tend to appear strong because I don't want others affected by my inner self. We all live two lives - one theoretically (how it appears to people) and one within our thoughts. And right now, I'm moving forward theoretically, but also moving backward within my mind. Jus be strong, gurrrrrl.
My mind has gotten me into a lot of trouble. This past week, I've been trying to silence it and just live the moment. It worked.. most of the time. But unfortunately, my mind is in whack right now/once again. I am an idiot. Why hope if there's 90% chance that your hopes won't be fulfilled? Hope for anything that would end this... Optimism and somewhere else than here is where I want to be, but it's just not gonna happen to me. It's hard to admit that time is just gonna keep going; it doesn't stop for anyone. It's hard to admit that you've made a mistake and the consequence is permanent. I tend to appear strong because I don't want others affected by my inner self. We all live two lives - one theoretically (how it appears to people) and one within our thoughts. And right now, I'm moving forward theoretically, but also moving backward within my mind. Jus be strong, gurrrrrl.
Numbered thoughts in no specific order:
01. I wish I didn't know
02. I just can't.. but I have to.
03. It's so sudden
04. Keep yo head up, kid
05. You have the right to, though.
06. Shoulda saved it! -.- lols
07. Are you my "kuya" still?
08. Good vibes again .. and hopefully staying :)
09. Dont knoes about you anymore
10. Confusing!
11. Hahah, great minds think alike
12. Reliving old times
13. Did you forget? I understand, though.
14. Just be happy :]
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