a long time since

it's been a while since i've written in my blog. it's because a lot has happened, and although i've been meaning to type in this every once in a while, i always stop and say that i need to recollect my thoughts and then i can type.

but this time, i need to explain all that has happened on the 15 or so days i haven't written in this.

so, high school is being a pain in the ass sometimes and sometimes it's really fun. most of time.. it's just a blast going to school seeing friends, going to my fav class, drinking frapps in world history & pe, everything. but sometimes, the pressure really gets to me and i get so nervous and start freaking out. i'm getting a b in algebra right now.. i hope i do well in tomorrow's test. i have confidence that i will because i studied my hardest today. english honors stresses the hell out of me sometimes because he's so like indecisive in all his due dates and shit.. it's like.. KEEP IT STRAIGHT. lol. pe is fun.. i love everyone in that class. religion is one of my favorites.. world history is one of my favorites too.. and spanish is so easy but that class goes by sooo slow.

it's been hard to keep in touch with old friends. i really wish i put more of an effort into doing it. but maybe it's because.. i'm just busy or too preoccupied. i suck at multitasking. and so, if any of you are reading this.. i'm sorry sometimes i don't reply to texts, phone calls, or IMs. it's not that i forgot about you guys.. or am distant.. it's just that i cannot concentrate. my love to all of you.. and i'll try harder more.

recently.. i've been thinking and trying to put pieces together. how some girls in this world really do make the statement "girls are so complicated" true. screw them. i don't understand why girls make themselves look like they're all that when they're not. i mean seriously.. boys are complicated, sometimes they complicate our lives, but do girls not think that they have feelings too? if you fall for the right guy not some selfish jerk.. guys are more emotional sometimes. the girl that they love.. can have much more of an effect on them than you girls will ever know it. 

and lastly... my boyfriend.

fiesta weekend was amazing for us. especially for the mirror maze thing. <3 

yet last week we went through some discovery of each other. how things are moving so quickly and it's already our sixth months coming up on october 13th. how we've been through SO much but we still have forever to go. it's so hard to admit that i'm in love at this young of an age.. because people believe that im too YOUNG. that i'm a fool. i admit it.. maybe i am naive at the depths of love and everything involved with the term "love", but who cares... i can learn. and i am. because when i talk to chris about the deepest things.. that is when our love shows the most. where it shows that we actually have not just love with each other, but a true friendship. someone who will always be there for me.. who i can tell literally everything to. my boyfriend is amazing.. he is my light in the darkness. i love him for who he is. who he has shaped me to be. i will always be his shorty.. and hopefully his inspiration and motivation.

life is amazing.

oh and chris.....

"hi ;)"