what i did in art class :]

I'm Such a Good Friend :D

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"A women's heart should be so lost in God that a man would have to seek Him to find her."

Random Thinks

i feel as if right now, i'm in this moment of life where i can only depend on myself. where there are many responsibilities on my shoulders, and sometimes i need days like this where there is nothing to do. i personally value those days where you're in your room home alone having personal time. i find it that during these times my mind becomes the most productive and organized .. that i can finally settle the commotion that my life's been revolving around. i feel as if right now in high school, i must grab every opportunity to enjoy, laugh, build a relationship with these girls .. the ones who will get me through life through support, girls night outs, boy hunts, and those heartbreaks. i feel as if my church-filled sundays are the sanity of my week because that day is when i let go, when i realize that "there is nothing God and I cannot handle together". but sometimes.. i feel as if i put too much weight on myself, too much worry. i strive to succeed for the best, and honestly nothing less. i'm that overachiever on the inside, but i maintain my cool on the outside. i find myself trying to please everyone at the same time; though some people say that it is impossible, i find the consequence pleasing. it's not like i'm bullshitting my realtionships and being a fake hoe. it's who i am. i think it's because i'm an only child. happiness is how i roll and i don't do well being sad. and with relationships, i think i just need time to find myself. to build patience, to seek the Lord, to remember my morals, to remember that

"A women should be so lost in God that a man would have to seek Him to find her"

i think time is all i need. and in the past, i pressed myself for time. always wanting this immediate gratification to fake this happiness that deep down i was not satisfied with in the long run. i need to find myself. i need to trust God and myself. i need to mature. i need to grow .. LITERALLY -_-. haha. but most importantly, i need to keep my faith, my optimism. i need to remember that God is watching over me. if God is with me, who is against me?

Butterflies

Today I experienced that particular feeling of butterflies that I haven't felt in the longest time.


Damn they feel good. (:

School

School is INTENSE.
Every day is tiring.. Mainly why?
ADVANCED PLACEMENT EUROPEAN HISTORY IS KILLING ME

I HATE HOMEWORK -_________-

Belanger says it's practically impossible to get an A. Only like one person got it last year.

I'm going to be that person this year.
DETERMINED, yes.

Bio and Honors classes are hoarding me.

TG tomorrow I F.

Love

Love is a beautiful thing. I haven't blogged about it in a while. But, it gives me true.. true happiness to see it around the world. Maybe I haven't found that one right now, but I know he's out there. I might have already met him and not realized it, he may be on the other side of the country, he may be sleeping. But God, please take care of him. =] I don't know what I'm feeling right now.. I know love isn't happening to me specifically, but I know that it's working it's wonders out in the world right now. And to know that I have set aside my impatientness, my grudges.. to help someone out. To truly look on the other side of things. To restore love in someone else... It gives me happiness. True damn happiness. <3

;D

Maybe

Maybe I didn't do the right thing.. or maybe I did.
I just didn't want history to repeat itself.
God, did I do the right thing?
I wanted us to be okay for now, but now.. I don't know.
I hope everything is okay after this.. for all of us.

Depressed

maybe i really have like nothing to do right now but this wisdom teeth shiz is depressing me. i can’t go out, eat properly, eat yummmmmmmmmy foods =(, work out, concentrate. -________________________-

i neeeeeeed sanity right now!! =(

Fuck you

Wisdom teeth.
I look like a balloon on both sides of my mouth.
-_-

10 things I live by

counting my blessings, living in the present, going with the flow, adventure, friendship, laughter, ‘it’s meant to be by God’, courage, proving em wrong, love.

surprisingly, this took me a long time to think about.

going to Las Vegas tonight. I really just wanna stay home and chillll -___- But adventure is callin and I'm livin it uppppppp

sanfrannn

ohhhh my so much fun. even if it's just me, my momma, and my dad .. we have a great time together.

so our plane was supposed to be at lax @ 945... but no shiii we leave at 1215. -____- MAJOR delay?! lol. well, that was interestang. we got there.. and we got our rental car - a PT cruiser! ahahahah. so we eat at in-n-out, then we check in sheraton (which is hecka trendy ahahah), and then we go on a cable car to downtown. omggg.. san fran is so beautiful. the hills are effing crazy. i don't even know if i could handle driving that. -___- but every view is just so pretty. and their mall was sooo nice. the escalators were so.. pretty! oh and we saw lombard street aka the crookedest prettiest street. very pretty. ahaha. san fran's just a nice city where everyone just does their own thang, yaknow? so i was really disappointed in their inventory at urban outfitters, forever 21, nordstrom, etc. socal shopping > norcal shopping. so yeah after that we went back to our hotel. oh btw, parking is so expensive.. we paid $43 at our hotel for one day of overnight parking?! omg. so then we walked a little to the wharf and ate some italian yumminess. duuude, it is FREEZING up there. but it's okay. i was prepared ;)

so wednesday.. we went to the golden gate bridge and road on it to go to uc berkley. that was interesting. all the college kids there are so trendy with their outfits and like.. "teen vogue"ish. yeah. so i got a cal shirt and a berkley hoodie. yay! i also got my backpack for school there, which was random. we walked around their student downtownish shopping area. it was nice and all. oh, and i tried yogurtland for the first time and that stuff is YUMMY. like i like froyo.. but that froyo is extra extra good. but anyways, we head back and we went downtown again and i got some cuuuuute boots and a sweater at f21. then we chilled at the wharf. we ended up eating at some fancyshmancy restaurant with their yummy goodness and the service was so nice! =) then we got tired so we went back to the room.

thursdayyy.. we went on a harbor cruise at the wharf. saw alcatraz and golden gate again. then guess who met up with me?! my long time cruise friend jassssonnnn! <3 that guy still looks the same. so how we met? basically 3 years ago we both went on the same cruise ship to hawaii.. and yeah, we were close but he lived in san fran :[ we kept in touch a lil.. so hey, i wanted to see himm! he's a cutie. :) so he met my parents then we ate with him some dimsum at chinatown. lol. then we departed our ways. :( it was such a short visit.. but ahhh i'm so glad i got to see him. threee years, baby. so.. yeah. we go to the airport, return our car, and head on a safe flight home. <3

thank God for the safe & fun trip! ;D

steubie west 09 "above all"

was AMAZING ♥

like there are no others words in my heart to exclaim how much I loved this weekend. i went to the retreat with an open heart because i was going through a lot.. and i came out of the retreat as a changed person. we left like thursday at midnight.. so like friday. i was in the van with michael, gabe, jarren, justine, and more cool peeps ... but dang we were the parttttyyyyyy van! mainly cos of gabe and mike yaknoww "SUMMMMER 09!" hahahahaah. it was realllllly fun. like on the way there we couldn't sleep cus gabe and mike threatened me, jarren, and justine -_____- gayness. but we sang lotsa praise songs and it took us like freakin 13 hours to get there. shiiiiiiii lol. but we finally got there and it was amazing. my roooomate was evette. 422, baby! hahah. it was cute. our dorms were FREEZING, but i mean it was good enough for just 3 days. friday night was chillll with the whole song and praise thing. saturday i signed my purity card that i'm FORSHURE gonna live up to, went to workshops .. i got really moved by the mass one, and had eucharistic adoration which was simply amazing. i cried so much there.. like i could truly feel that God wanted me to be there. i was straying from my faith and putting little heart into my practices.. but now, my heart is on fire for God. Jesus is so forgiving, so loving. that day i also committed my life to God, along with many other people. that was touching. <3 sunday was vewy nice. we ate, had mass, and then more praise and worship. that day.. we also did a really powerful and moving prayer thing with 3 people. so me, theresa, and katrina were together and basically we had to say what we wanted the Holy Spirit to help us with and then the friends would put their hands on the person and say aloud a prayer. like.. typically, it sounds so weird but when i did it. it just felt SO GOOD. i teared up because man.. praying with friends really makes you CLOSE. this whole retreat was amazing and i felt like i literally got closer to EVERYONE. "POCKET DEUCES" with randy.. lesley and his hype clothing.. MOSDEF bonding with jarren and justine.. jorge and me with our deep talking.. gabe and mike making fun of me in the van -_____-.. one of my favorites with Fr. Stan and his amazing guitar/hiphop skills "Ain't no party like a CATHOLIC partAYYYYYYY!"... what else.. the EGGPLANT ladies.. bryan and his cute nickname.. bonding with katrinaaa, theresa, and jas.. praising Jesus with 2000+ teens.. man, it was just fun. so after the retreat we went to the ostrich farm which was fun. hahaha. =) i loved this experience. it was one of the greatest i've ever had in my life. i feel so reconnected with God. His love with above all. He will always be with us and will always have the heart to forgive us. He is my model. He is who I live my life for.

honestly, my blog on the trip is nothing matching up the experience. the experience was not even amazing. it was BEYOND it. like.. i am truly blessed. BLESSED to be chosen to take part in steubenville. it is just incredible what you get out of it. a peaceful mind, a serene heart, an optimistic outlook. it's ALL worth it.

Romans 8: 31-39

JESUS-ifiedddd

Yeahhhh, listening to some Lifeteen songs on a Christian Rock radio station on iTunes. I'm PUMPED, Lord! :) But, fuhhhhhhkkkk present of the month will be with me on our trip -_- Oh wells... just gotta deal I guess.

Today I went to Cue with them ECC Choir ladiessss. It was entertaining, tiring, fun, crazy, tiring, and okay. :)

Ahahahaha

http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/2009/07/sweet-treats.html

^^ Cutest thang in the world!

ALEC HERNANDEZ! Besssttt

youjustgotberned: do you think that's the right decision

aleclovessanbon: what?

youjustgotberned: to kicck her off

aleclovessanbon: EXACTLY

aleclovessanbon: first off

aleclovessanbon: you have to understand

aleclovessanbon: that

aleclovessanbon: i am the highest rank

youjustgotberned: oh you're the shit.

aleclovessanbon: i am

youjustgotberned: HAHA

aleclovessanbon: im not even joking

youjustgotberned: that is so going on my blog.

aleclovessanbon: no one is ABOVE me

aleclovessanbon: hahah

aleclovessanbon: fu

Soph Class Schedule

A - Bio, Nguyen
B - Religion 2, O'Rourke
C - Studio Arts, Cecala
D - Spanish 2, Galvez
E - Adv.Geom Honors, Palmer
F - Eng2 Honors, Gonzalez
G - AP Euro History, Belanger

Gooood Beats

Hihihi :) So, I'm listening to my 'good beats' playlist on my iHome and PDA by John Legend is on. FEEL GOOD JAM! Yeahhhh :)
Okay, so I'm back on tumblr again .. which is the reason I haven't been blogging here in a while. My tumblr is for like errryday thoughts and adventures. And blogspot.. I dont know. -____- Why am I even keeping two blogs? But I love the look of tumblr. x]
So yeahh, nothing's really been up. Here's what happened since I last blogged:

-Friday: Victoria Gardens with Aiko and her bro. Urban Outfitters had some AMAZING sales -drool-. I wish I could go back and do some hardcore $hoppin. =/ ahahaha. Bought some cute jeans and geek glasses at F21. Took pictures at the apple store. Yaknoww the usual.

-Saturday: Played for a quince and a renewal of wedding vows @ St. Martha. Thenn played for the 5 pm mass. Ahaha. Went to eat at Red Lobster yummmss. :)

-Sunday: Played for 1030 am mass @ St. Chris. Visited Papa at the cemetary, got some InNOut and Tutti Frutti froyo <3 Then went to lifeteen choir practice late -___- Ghays. Then 5 pm Lifeteen mass where me, Lesley, and Evette were talking about STEUBENVILLE ahhhhhh =) It's coming so soon! But yeahhh. Took a run at Shadow Oak around 8, knockeddd out

-Monday: Olive Garden with my momma, Puente Hills mall to cool around, controlled $hopping habits and didn't buy ANNYTHANG! :), Coach fucking canceled practice again, went to St. Chris to shoot some balls ;), and yeahhh thas it.

TODAY .. nothing's going on. Gotta game at Rowland HS. Last game for the summa! :( Hope we winn. Let's doooo this. Then after, pedicure at the place by Seafood City. Ahaha.

Tomorrow .. Cue! with my choir gals. <3 I miss them!

STEUBENVILLE THIS THURSDAY NIGHTTT @ 10pm.

10 Dear Yous

1. I feel like we're distancing .. or maybe that's just how we always were. We were only comfortable with each other if we were also with other people. Idk. But just know I'm here duude, to talk or just to hang. I miss you. I wish you lived closer.
2. I'm really getting in a "dgaf" about you. I'm not mad at you; it's just that I'm losing hope that you're gonna fucking stick up for yourself. You ask me for help.. but I can't do anything. It's your call. Like I said.. I wanna know if this distance is worth it. And don't give me this "I'm crying" bs .. making me feel bad?! You say you care about me, that I'm all you think about everyday .. I won't believe it until I see it.
3. I want to thank you for everything. You're like my best friend. Sometimes I feel bad asking you to do things for me.. but I promise I'll do what I have to do.
4. You're seriously sketchy.
5. We've gotten so close this summer! I feel like I could tell anything to ya and not be judged. I'm always here for you, and enjoy the PI! We're gonna hang out at Cue when ya come back ;)
6. I don't know why I can never get bored with you. I've been best friends with you for like.. ever and we never have a boring moment! Our AIM conversations are pretty much hilarious.. I literally LOL. I'm glad we're close.
7. I'm happy for you. Congratulations on your recent accomplishment! =)
8. You are snoooooty, girlfriend. You needa stop putting up a fake front.
9. I think my first impression on you is wrong. Maybe you are a nice girl. Though I would not like to believe it, maybe that's just the plain truth. I wonder how long you'll last.
10. You's a cutay. And you're also pretty much PERFECT -__- Which for the first time in my life, I feel like I'm inferior to someone. And I'm not digging that feeling...

Updatin

Hihihihi! :] Okays, so what's been happenin this week? Let me updates.

Monday - A notsofun practice -__-
Tuesday - Game @ Rowland, lost, coach was fucking pissed, SHAKEYS night for LifeTeen fundraiser! Hahah that was funs
Wednesday - My birfday! Momma woke me up, took me to St. Chris for mass where Fr. Nestor actually pointed me out and made me stand and recognized me as pianist and people clapped yadadada... how nice of him! :), went to Mimi's Cafe for breakfast, went to the most useless practicee cus like half the team bailed supposedly cus coach told that the practice was gonna be a hard one due to the game, went to Olive Garden with BAM! ahahah funny shiz, ate our food for like 5 minutes and had to get to to-go so we could get good seats for Harry Potta (but Alec is a maniac and fucking finished his food already!), got good seats in the back of the theater, ate some Olive Garden in the theater, watched HP, dropped Alec and Mary, then went home and knockeeeddd outtt
Thursday - I was supposed to go to fucking Universal Studios with the cousins -___- but damn psat class, but anyways class was more interesting maybe cus I finally talked to some gal haha. But uhh, yesterday night? Dealin with some pure bs .. and I'm really getting in a "dgaf" mood.

So yeahs! Tonights I'm going with Jyron and Aiko to VG .. I'm fuckin sick of that place already -___- but it's like where else is there to hang? Really wanted to go to Cue! with some friends, but nahh no one is available. Still to need to hang with my L2 lovesss, but who knows when -___-. Okays, so yeah. Ashley is leaving Sunday for the PI :( and STEUBIE retreat is next Thurs night already ahhhhhhhhhh I'm so excited. Summer league ends next Tues. July is sucha good month in general. :D



Oh and I forgot to include some pics from the Lim BBQ. That was fun.

Ladderball!

OKAY LOOK AT THAT ^^; that is an actual mango/orange where the fruit is ICE CREAM! Genius right? And they even had like pineapple and coconut. Omggg crazy x]

Happy Camper

Okays, so wow I haven't blogged in foreva. What happened the past week?
Monday - bball practice
Tuesday - Won our game!
Wed - practice
Thurs - ghay ass PSAT class
Fri - went to Chino Hills Spectrum with Monica, Nicole, and Emily
Saturday - internship, masses/quince's @ St. Martha, thai BBQ
Sunday - Lim BBQ! :)

So yeahs. Today was real funs with the cousinss. (: Some ladderball, yummy bbq, food, asian imitations "hotdoggiee", USC, Oscar Meyer weinermobiles, etc.

I've been a happy camper lately,
and my birthday is this Wednesday. -__- Dayum hah

Plans on my birthday?
-Bball practice
-Olive garden then watching HP at 745 at AMC with BAM<3

Good Company

Okay, I have updated on whatchu might call an amazinginly fun weekend. Okays so here is what happenedd:
Saturday- Okay so Saturday .. My dad took me & my momma around LA. It was reallly interesting and fun. It was like we were sight-seeing and stuff. So we go around and see USC, his alma meter: Loyola HS, Beverly Hills Center, Rodeo Drive, the BevHills mansions, Rodeo Drive .. and then we coincidentally passed by MJ's BevHills HOUSE! aslkdfjoiweurjaslkdfj:! So then we ate Chinese goodness at Mayflower in Chinatown. Then we drove to end the day with fireworks at Diamond Bar HS.



Sunday- 1030 mass @ St. Chris. Visited Papa at the cemetary. And then Monica&Nicole came over to soon go to the LA Sparks vs. Phoenix Mercury game! (: We tried to make a poster .. epic fail -___- But we brought it anyway. Hahah. So we get there and see the MJ Memorial thing (2nd picature) and we enter Stapless! Damn security took our poster away cause they said it was too big.. Gayness! We bought some pretzles and we had some REALLY good seats in the 103 section. The Sparks were leading at halftime.. but I think they lost 90 to 104. Foam fingers, the Asian boy in SPARKSKIDS!<3, picatures with the Sparks mascot Sparky, etc. Hahah, fun<3 It was Lisa Leslie's birthday.. but she didn't play and the Sparks ended up losing on her birthday -__- Ghays. But all-in-all it was prettty fun I gotta say. Game ended, we went to Jack in the Box, and had a long car ride home. Baby .. $27 tickets is way worth it!

So, yesterday I ate some Olive Garden yumminess with my momma and had basketball practice.
And todayys, we gotta game against Charter Oak. Let's dooo this♥

Foreva eva eva

Today was a good good day (: Mosdef like a 8/10 day at the least. Spent the day with Ashleeeyy and we had some crazy adventure. We needa have more of these .. just the two of us, or more people!
Mmhm so here's what went down:

-Ashley called and woke me up around like 930 -___-
-Her mommmy picked me up and we went to Montebello
-2 hours in their freaking Forever 21!
-Bought a white tank, a tribal-ish dress/top, two pairs of earrings
-ate some yummy goodness at Sbarro
-RUDE cashiers at Express haha
-Drove to Puente Hills
-Watched some incredible jumping thing in the middle of the mall, bought tix for UP
-UP was the cutest movie everr!
-Old Navy deals!
-Boy straight up talks @ Starbucks at Target
-Ashley's house for picatures and etc lols

Summer's really going well these days .. and FAST -___-. But it's okay. I'm enjoying it at the least, fasure fasure. Oh, and I neeeda control my $hopping habits -.-

Tomorrow my dad offered to take me around LA! Yay. We're gonna go around to like The Grove, W Hollywood, Rodeo Drive, Beverly Center, his alma meter: Loyola HS, UCLA, and then end the day with fireworks at somewhere in Diamond Bar. Yayayay

And then Sunday... LA SPARKS! :)

Hello Birthday Month!

So hihihihihi. Today practice got canceled .. even if we need it! But es okaysss. We're gonna kick bootay tomorrow, I'm hopinnn ! As Dom said, we're a psychological team and we just needa be pumped. Mann, that guy always turns problems into smiles for me :)

Okay so I was reading Rico's blog and his playlist played some David Ryan Harris. Mann, I haven't heard that guy in forevvvsss. I love love love his music. It's that sorta music that you listen to at night when you're lying in bed just thinking about life. Gotta download that tomorrow.

11:11 right now and I just made my wish.

Okay, so LOTS of thangs happening in JULY! I'm excited :DD

7/3 - Movies with Ashleyy? :) We might watch UP! :D
7/4 - Fireworks of course.. but I dont knoes where
7/5 - LA SPARKS GAME with Nicole and Monica!! Yayayayay
7/6 to 7/9 - Practice, game @ bonita hs, practice, game @ bonita hs
7/12 - Lim BBQ
7/13 to 7/16 - Practice, game @ rowland hs, practice, practice
7/15 - MIDNIGHT PREMIERE OF HP with Maray and Alec H [yesss Imma make you!!] for my birthdayyyyyy :)))
7/20 to 7/22 - Practice, game @ rowland hs
7/23 to 7/26 - STEUBENVILLE WEST RETREAT in ARIZONAAA! :)
7/28 to 7/30 - SAN FRANN with fambam :)

Yep. I'm hoping this month will be good for me. Mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically(?) lols. Everythings going so fast .. I wish it would slow down. It's time this month, esp during Steubie, that I realllly reconnect with the JESUS cos lately.. my mind hasn't been set on him -.- Mhm.

Thoughts:
-Work hard, improve, focus
-Uhmmm okay? Lols.
-How awkward
-"Man in the Mirror"
-Making lists
-It used to be on me
-The past is the past.
-Living the moment
-Slow motion <3
-Because that's all that matters.



LMAO! x]

'Cos Ya Got Me Tripppin

I NEEDA GO TO DISNEYLAND THIS SUMMER! :]

Mm, past few days? Eat, sleep, pee, basketball, and running.
But today's basketball game? BU$T. We need to get our heads in the game. 2-2 now

Sos.. Sunday I'm going to the LA Sparks game with Nicole and Monica! YAY! My first'evr basketball game.. it's gonna be funnn, I just know it.



Thoughts:
-Work hard and prove em wrong
-Please just stfu and calm yo ass down!
-Best friends always make my day.
-I need to stop.
-Move Along
-Feelin good, feelin good
-Wtf is wrongggg
-I dont get it
-Determination
-Lifesaver
-Talking some sense into me.


Alec H is fucking hilarious:

youjustgotberned: so hows biki

aleclovessanbon: shes like

aleclovessanbon: on her rag

aleclovessanbon: all moody

youjustgotberned: same with ellie

aleclovessanbon: you know how she likes george michael?

youjustgotberned: yup

aleclovessanbon: well

aleclovessanbon: like yesterday

aleclovessanbon: i was trying to piss her off just cuz

aleclovessanbon: and i was like "i think michael jackson is waay better than george michael".

aleclovessanbon: she grabbed my ear

aleclovessanbon: dragged me outside

aleclovessanbon: and locked me out for an hour.

youjustgotberned: HAHAHA

youjustgotberned: HAHAHAH

youjustgotberned: HAHAHHA

youjustgotberned: that is so going on my blog.

Boy you've got me trippppinn...

Weekend Wrap-up

My weekend was pretty good, yeeeee.
Okay so here's what went down:

Friday - Choir, wanted to walk around Shadow Oak .. fail, In-N-Out @ the Village!

Saturday - internship -__-, went to the wrong house epic fail hahah, Taylor's house, Victoria Gardens, CPK yummmiess, Apple Store picatures, The Proposal, hello to some Lucy gals, Urban Outfitters bags and rude employees, Forever 21 aviators, and the big&fashoinable CPK leftover bag! :) Hah

Sunday - ECC 12 pm mass, Erika's birthday at Shakey's, Lifeteen, walk at Shadow Oak, thai bbq!

PS. So Farrah, MJ, and now.. Billy Mays (sp?)! WTF IS HAPPENING. :(


Okay, so yeah here are some 'dear yous':

1) Wow, you are so good it's like.. impossible to know that there's a guy like you out there. But somehow, it kinda bugs me a little. I know it shouldn't .. but dayum, you are just SO nice. It really bums me how your 'rents don't let you go out as often. But hey, the distance builds some excitement I guess. You make me smile lotslotslots, but mann ... this distance is killing me.

2) I know I shouldn't have tension with you, but I know deep down I do .. and I shouldn't. -.- I'm thinkin you're startin to play the field. You really confuse me because I don't know if you're supporting * or just having a good time yaknow. I can't blame you for just livin it up .. Cmon, I know you're just tryna be cool with everyone, but do you have to go to this extent?

3) So I've been talking to you more these days and you really need to stop looking at every negative thing there is in your life and seriously just keep moving. Like instead of taking initiative anytime, just cool your horses and live with the moment. There are positive things and you just need to make sure those are the thoughts that occupy your mind, not the negative things.

4) I haven't talked to you in forever. I don't know how you are.. but I try to keep updated witcha. Honestly, it's like you're not even here. I wonder how things'll end up.

5) I don't personally know you ... but you give me a bad vibe already. Prove me wrong.




AHHH, I wanna go to an LA Sparks game this Sunday. Anyone wanna go with me? :D

The End of a Legend

MICHAEL JACKSON 1958-2009
"The King of Pop" & Forever will his legacy remain...

The man with amazing music; who did the infamous moonwalk; who had everyone doing the Thriller dance; who is a worldwide sensation; who wanted the best after everything that's happened. He made AMAZING music and was one of the greatest contributions to the music industry. Such a shock, mosdef.. But God called him up. RIP MJ ♥

Regents 2-1!

Updating

Yums. What a pretty LA city lights picture.

Okay, so I haven't updated on my life lately basically because I'm lazy... but also because my life these days has been doin pretty good (: I'm strengthening friendships with people I barely talked to in the past, focusing on basketball, hanging out with the girls, keeping in touch with as many people as I can, and getting pumped up for this summer's trips! Whoooooo yeee boi.

Went to St. Marthas for the Steubie meeting ... and man just ONE MORE MONTH! I'm so excited for this retreat. :DD San Fran .. I'm pretty excited for too. The only thing I'm pretty bummed about this summer is how I won't be at the beach often because no one is so far organizing any beach trips -___- And damn, planning beach trips are HELL .. experienced that last year. But uhmms, I'll hope someone plans something. (: Yeeeah

My mind has been at ease these days. All the daily plans take my mind off of any stress. I've learned to just leave the situation alone. It's not going to get better, and I just have to face it. I've done my part and tried my best. And the future? I dont even fucking knoes what's going to happen -___- But, God has a plan rights? And even if this past month I've been asking whywhywhy... now, I've been doing well and accepting what's happening. The hard times are over for me. Now, it's just time to learn from what happened and just look to the future.


And now.. returning to numbered thoughts:
01. Is it time yet?
02. Hello stranger
03. Happy belated birthday!
04. Birthday gifts
05. Tickle spots :)
06. Just Friends
07. Shocking & touching
08. You forreals?
09. Do you ever look back...
10. Unsolved
11. You make me smile, forreals.
12. Happy birthday Dani
13. Tiring, but it feels good.
14. I can't let this go further.
15. You are sucha sweetie
16. My good morning & good night :)<3

Happy People are Beautiful

"She believed in dreams, alright, but she also believed in doing something about them. When Prince Charming didn’t come along, she went over to the palace and got him.

— Walt Disney, speaking of Cinderella

I thought the picture and quote were adorable, so I decided to put them up. I had a good day today. Woke up at 9, took an uphill jog, went in the backyard to practice dribbling a little, did some exercises, chilled, WON OUR BASKETBALL GAME :D (now 2-0 baby!), and now.. just relaxing. =)

Starbucks Inspiration

No specific thoughts for the day .. because today was a good day!
Went to Long Beach and walked around and went on a boatie with my mom&dad. (:

My dad is the best father anyone could ask for; hands down.
-He is the most responsible, understanding guy you could ever meet. He is the least selfish person on the planet. He has the most humblest heart, and is the role model that I want to be like. He doesn't settle for your crap, and he teaches me to be strong. He helps me refrain from listening to gossip. He knows how to deal with my mom&I's mood swings. He helps me with my math homework and fills me with daily intellectual conversations about anything and everything. He and I have hilarious inside jokes and crack sarcastic comments to each other. He will give you a second chance, and only demand the best. My dad is cautious and perfectly balances with the personality of my mom, who is adventurous. My dad is the total gentleman and knows how to make a lady happy. My dad is like my best friend and I am so glad he is mine.



& Happy Father's Day to all the pops out there!

Count your blessings, not your problems.

My Milk Toof (cutest thang ever!) - mymilktoof.blogspot.com

Today was what I needed. ♥

So, in the beginnings, it started off pretty well. Slept in a lot today and woke up at 11 to my mom's daily "hihoneyhowareyou" phone call from work. Then cousins call and they end up coming over around 12:30. So we spend the day watching Youtube vids, Mean Girls, looking at my yearbook, and cheating at Kingdom Hearts on my ps2. So, as plans got canceled, more plans were made. =] Dom & I met at Montebello mall around 715ish.

It was pretty chilll. I mean he like met my parents n stuff. I told them we'd be around the mall, but we ended up walking all the way to the movies (rebels rebels..) which was like actually far walking distance -__- but it was alrights. Omg, their AMC was so different to Puente's -.- So anyways, we watched Year One.. mosdef not worth your $$, but it was nice cause he paid for popcorn & the movie anyways. (: Yums. So I got scared throughout the whole movie thinking my parents might find out cause they're walking around the mall too... but we leave the movie a lil early.. walk down back to the mall and yeah.. everythang went smoothly! (: Hahah, the date was cutes and the walk to&from the movies was real cutes. Good day good day.

And yeahss
No numbered thoughts today.
(:

Ladies and gentlemen

A word that rhymes with Orange ....



... Door hinge.

:)

Just Get Back Up

"Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but theres also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along."

So what did my day consist of today?
-Seventeen Magazine workouts
-Watched Bride Wars ... cutes cutes! :] I love romantic comedies! Ahhhh PS Lovelove the coats they have in this movie. All their outfits are so trendy
-Watched Hannah Montana, Jonas, and Wizards of Waverly Place
-Textin it up
-Went to Joghurt!
-Went to *, failed.
-Walked around Shadow Oak park with mommy.
-Just leaning on the girls and staying strong <3

I don't have a fuckinn ride to basketball. So, this is really ghay. It's all the way in Upland. Whoo, I'm super nervous for game. Like Gold was bagging on me because I haven't gone... -__- It's not my faulttt ! Tori was supposed to be my ride tomorrow, but right now she just bailed. Ghayness.

Oh & I wanted to go to the Laker Parade with Marielle.. but my mom said no cause it's "dangerous". BLEH, much. PS Someone get me a Laker jersey for my birthday?!

& Now.. Forreals:
I don't know what the future will bring me. I don't know how many times this past month I've tried getting up and I've been smacked down again. I don't know how many times I've thought and hoped and asked why these things are happening... why I can't just let it go. It's not that I want to take you back.. I've just never lost a friend, but if that's how it will be then I'm just gonna go with the flow now. I can't please everyone.. I know it'll be hard just facing the fact that someone else will make you happy, but things change. This is so so so fucking hard, and I don't know if I've faced anything tougher... but I have to have to accept it and stay strong. I just have to.

Numbered thoughts:
01. The hope within me
02. Center of attention? :)
03. Best girlfriends
04. The perfect one
05. "Dream" by Priscilla Ahn
06. "I'm Scared" by Duffy
07. "Give Love a Try" by the Jonas Brothers
08. I wish this wasn't real.
09. Breakdown
10. I can't keep hoping.
11. Let's start over?
12. All memories gone.
13. EPIC FAIL x[
14. Just. keep. moving.

PS. I want an Ariza/Kobe/Gasol/Odom jersey for my birthhdayyyy!

Baby, if you knew...

Lazzzzzzyyy day. Nothing really happened today. Practice schedule this week is messed up like crazy, but we have our first game at Bonita on Thursday. Lots of thinking in the morning, bought daddy some Father's Day gifts, and just talked to many many people at night (:

So, those Thai life insurance commercials are so fucking touching that it makes me appreciate life just a little more. Good good good stuff

Oh, and I've been having dreams lately... nearly everyday! Crazy, it's like every morning for the past few days.

Numbered thoughts in chronological order:
01. Dream decoding
02. As long as you're happy
03. I just can't stop
04. Just accept it
05. Appreciating life a little more
06. "Who do you live life for?"
07. Misaligned
08. The world's greatest daddy<3
09. Can't face my fears yet
10. 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's
11. I don't want to hurt you.
12. Surprise! :)
13. Cute confessions.
14. You have the right.. the fucking right.
15. Oh so charming.

I just have to have to accept it. Time is changing. And everything is rearranging before my eyes.

Appreciate

So, Sean showed me this video. Probably the most touching/saddest thing I've ever seen on YouTube. Cherish those you love because time is the fastest thing on earth.. you never know what you got till it's gone.

Take Me Away

LA Lakers 2009 NBA CHAMPIONS, babyyy!
BLEEDIN' PURPS&GOLD

Okayes, so today was basically... yeah. Not the best. Only the Laker game, but I didn't even have the chance to watch it >:[

My mind has gotten me into a lot of trouble. This past week, I've been trying to silence it and just live the moment. It worked.. most of the time. But unfortunately, my mind is in whack right now/once again. I am an idiot. Why hope if there's 90% chance that your hopes won't be fulfilled? Hope for anything that would end this... Optimism and somewhere else than here is where I want to be, but it's just not gonna happen to me. It's hard to admit that time is just gonna keep going; it doesn't stop for anyone. It's hard to admit that you've made a mistake and the consequence is permanent. I tend to appear strong because I don't want others affected by my inner self. We all live two lives - one theoretically (how it appears to people) and one within our thoughts. And right now, I'm moving forward theoretically, but also moving backward within my mind. Jus be strong, gurrrrrl.

Numbered thoughts in no specific order:
01. I wish I didn't know
02. I just can't.. but I have to.
03. It's so sudden
04. Keep yo head up, kid
05. You have the right to, though.
06. Shoulda saved it! -.- lols
07. Are you my "kuya" still?
08. Good vibes again .. and hopefully staying :)
09. Dont knoes about you anymore
10. Confusing!
11. Hahah, great minds think alike
12. Reliving old times
13. Did you forget? I understand, though.
14. Just be happy :]

Fatty Status

So basically everything I had to do today had to do with food. -.- Wow, Bernie, wow.

Firstoffs, I did my internship at Kaiser. That was entertaining ... not! Thenn, I visit St. Chris Children's Choir practice for their summer-goodbye party thangg = lotsa food and crazy lil kiddies. But, that was fun while it lasted. Thenn, Mary & Alec came over mi casa around 2 and we "helped Alec study for his finals", pigged out on Papa John's, played badminton, and talkedtalkedtalked about everything/nothing/anything. Oh, and me&Mary got locked out of my house -___- BAM Reunions!<3 Ok, so they leave around 6ish and I get ready for my Mama & cuz's birthday at Salo-Salo. Yummmmy food, taught my cousins how to play Ninja, andd talked'ntalked.

And yeah! So.. lotsa food, but it was a good day.. realistically.

Thoughts runnin through my head:
01. It just depends I guess
02. Cool, calm, collected
03. Just ignore ignore ignore it
04. I can't stop..
05. The innocence of being a kid
06. I don't know anymore
07. All talks?
08. That connection is what I love.
09. Paranoid
10. Slow motion, pleasee
11. Shut yo mouths, please.
12. Let it go
13. "I'll be here if you fall."
14. The 13th

Oh my. Needin that inna strength & some sweet talks.

Each Day Gets Better

Did I express how much I love John Legend? I loveLOVElove him. He is a wonderful wonderful guy. (:

Okayes, so today was pertty chill. Woke up at 10ish to my lola calling the house phone. -.- Haha, but it's her birfday tomorrow - June 13th! So tomorrow we're gonna celebrate and eat out with the fambam. Oh, and it's my cousin Josh's birfday too.. so I just gotta think of presents for both of em right now. =)

Anyways, I was really really really bored today. Cleaned my room a lil, and I ended up getting addicted playing to The Sims 2 on ps2. Mhm. So, I got plans got ruined twice today. Dom said his dad said tonight was a no (wow -_-) and me & Taylor just can't find time together these days! :[ So, I call Nicole and see if she wants to go to The Shoppes in Chino Hills and it's a go, thank gooodness. So 7 comes, and Monica&Nicole don't arrive till 730 even if they live like right around the corner haha. Walk around; Monica causing scenes/yelling; pick out each other dresses at Forevaeva, which was hilarious; have a gay guy with a pink boa, tanktop, skirt, and boots holla at us; and Nicole bought three of us friendship rings at Claire's! [:

Good day in the end.

Oh, and todayy.. I was basically thinking of my whole summer coming up and I'm very excited. I forgot alll about Steubie and all the mini-trips this year. I miss our annual big family vacation =/ .. but it's okay cause this summer is about new experiences. So here's wsup so far:

-Basketball games every Tues & Thurs until the 23rd. Practice every day there's not a game.
-PSAT Prep classes somewhere in Diamond Bar every Wed from 6-9 FML! -____-
-Steubenville West Witness Retreat in Arizona is July 24-26! :]]]]
-San Fran family trip is July 28-30!
-Oh, and to top it off.. my birthday is July 15th ;) I wanna go to Disneyland or whatevss and hang out with every group of friends I have .. church, school, choir, whatevs .. Just wanna reconnect, hang, and have a gooood time!

& some of the daily thoughts:
01. Caught red-handed?
02. Is this forreall?
03. This is soso hard.
04. I can't let my mind wander on you.
05. You have the right to.
06. Double gayness.
07. Thank you thank you
08. Time's short when you're having a good time.
09. Thanks for not being there.
10. What I found made me lose respect for you.
11. Keep it cool and just play the game.
12. I can't wait till tomorrow!

Lesson Learned

More patient, more trusting, more forgiving, more calm&collected, more light.
That's how I'll be..
I'm not gonna mess up my other loves.
I'mma do them well.
I promise myself I won't make the same mistakes.
I promise.

Todayyy, practice got canceled =/ Oh wells. So I spent my day cleaning my closet.. which looks HELLA AMAZING now haha. I wanted to take a picture, but it doesn't look so amazing on pictures. So you gotta see it yourself :) Thenn I went to Shadow Oak to practice some ball and walk around.. got a pedicure with my mommy.. and then went home.
Oh we got our grades todayy.. Straight A's babyy! :)
Yep, and then the ahhmazing Lakers game. 3-1 YEAHH!

The Subliminal World:
01. Indifference
02. Accomplishment.. all from cleaning a closet. Hah.
03. I miss ya.
04. If I could.. I would.
05. I have to be realistic.
06. 1,2,3 up!
07. Phew.
08. Nervous for tomorrow?
09. Awkward conversations
10. Is it really worth it?
11. Is this how it's gonna be?

Gooo Ariza, Gasol, and Fishhaaaa :]

GANGSTA

I had that inner nigga feelin inside me right now, so I decided to name my blog "Gangsta".
Wow I'm ghay! Lol, well 'ello. Todayes.. subliminally, was not good.. my thoughts are out of control. Buttttt I did try to control myself. Horoscopes freak the haillll out of me:

You may feel trapped in your own skin, and your impatience could lead you to take impulsive actions. Your uncharacteristically flippant manner can land you into a heap of trouble today. Remember that your words, however casually you speak them now, can either create disillusionment or encourage others to perform great deeds.

Word of the day: Flippant ... say that five times fast!
So basically, my horoscope's telling me that I need to watch my mouth, or my ass is grass.

Ohh current thought: I want a webcam!

Anyways, realistically.. the day was good. Weird, right? But I mean, there's a difference between the thoughts that goes on in your head and the appearance of how you act in reality. My legs are hella sore againn =[ But, I'm not complaining because I honestly do enjoy the gamee.

Subliminal thoughts of the day:
01. Is this getting dull?
02. Productiveness vs. Laziness
03. I'm walking like a have something stuck in my crotch.. but I can't help it!
04. I'mma rise
05. Watching and hearing
06. I wonder.
07. Unbelievable
08. The future is not predictable.
09. Want to vent, but can't.
10. "Who Is Happier?"
11. Gabe Bondoc's tumblr posts are hilarious and insightful.
12. Gentlemen Don't
13. Double Date?
14. Just keep.. moving.
15. Late night texts
16. JEREMY is a cacaface hahaha
17. Oh the future -____-

"Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you. "

Triple Threat

That's what this is.. a mess. & that's all I gotta say.

-So.. anyways, besides this late night shhiiiii, it's been a relaxing day. Basketball takes minds off things. I wanna get better and better each day. It's ghayy cause everyone's been on the team last year, but whatevvss Imma risee! Build stamina, increase technique, triple threat. Mmhm
-YOU finally called. Yayyyyy
-My legs hurrrrt like haiiillll
-I love Evette & Jas
-Nonstop textinggg, secret smiles, "cooking" :)
-I feel bad, sad, mad, good, happy, grateful, okay.

Thoughts for the day:
01. I'm really digging this.
02. You're whipped!
03. Wild imagination
04. Slow motion
05. Wow, helllooo ;)
06. Sore to the maxxxx
07. Wrong socks! =(
08. This blowwwsss
09. It just doesn't end.
10. I feel bad.
11. He's just like _______ now.
12. You've been through enough.. please take care.
13. I can't believe myself.
14. KARMA. Pure Karma.
15. How sweet.
16. Second chances.
17. I don't think I ever can face you again.
18. Happy endings.. are overplayed.
19. It's all about new beginnings.

"He's Just Not That Into You"

I'm thinking these are quotes to "He's Just That Not Into You" the book, not the movie. But either way, they're really good... and really funny, teehee :D

"It's very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less -- even a vague pathetic facsimile of less -- than you would have ever imagined. Remember always what you set out to get and please don't settle for less. These guys exist because there are a lot of women out there who allow them to."

"A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you."

"Calling when you say you're going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can't lay this one stupid brick down, you ain't never gonna have a house, baby. And it's cold outside." Haha.

"Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company. "

"Don't confuse being classy with being a doormat. Classy is walking away with your head held high, graciously, and with all dignity. Being a doormat is offering to drive him to the dentist for his root canal."

"No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing."

"Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you. "

_______________

As much as these quotes are harsh and whatnot, these are reality. These are the things in the back of your mind; the things behind your excuses for the shit. Face reality. And like these... find humor in it! :]

Getting Good!

Summer is starting to get gooood these days. Oh, and I had a relaxing day today too. (:

-Woke up at 10, brush my teeef, etc.
-Watched He's Just Not That Into You. I effffin love that movie. So cute, esp Ben & Jennifer! I want a man like that! [: Romantic comedies are my favvv.
-Took a walk to Creekside. Rebel rebel ;)
-Basketball summer league practice! Oh how I missed it soooo. ;)
-NEW NIKES for basketball! Yeeeee boi. They're pretty.
-H Salt. Co Fish & Chips yummy
-Movies movies movies

My movie savior is that DVD Red Box in Albertsons that lets you *legally* watch movies for a dollar. <3
So, yeah... Good day. Good luck to those who have finals.. buttumss, most of you get of school, yeah?

Not much thinking for today, but 'here goes:
01. Groggggy
02. Working for that bikini bod, baby! Hehe ;)
03. Soo nervous
04. Walks are relaxing.
05. Watch yo back!
06. Bumpy =(
07. Just leave it alone.
08. This is what I've wanted.
09. Still my thang, baby
10. DIPSHIT
11. "The thrill of the chase."
14. Playa, playa.. Get your mind straight.
15. Itchy =(
16. You're really aggressive
17. What the fuck do I do..

Imma post some of those quotes. They're funny.

MFEO

Jack's Mannequin is streaming back into my playlists once againn! :] Back to the old days.
So, today was alrights. I played for the 1030 mass at St. Chris, visited my Papa ♥, ate at some yummy Pho restaurant, went to Lifeteen, and enjoyed myself at LifeNight ! It was funfun I guess. I missed my Lakers game though. But, that's all that happened today. It satisfied me.

Summer league basketball starts tomorrow! Conditioning, shit -_-

I'm lazy for numbered thoughts. Hehe :D

"We were made, we were madee for each other.. Ahhhh
Is it possible for the world to look this way forever?"

Because of You

My dearest readers. If you've been following me, you know I've been through probably the hardest month of my life. So much fucking drama that I want OUT of this city right now. There are a lot of ASB's out here minus the "S". A chapter of my life has just ended, and basically I'm tired and.. just done. But, to those some of my "main" that have been there since day one.. this is for you.

01. Taylor, I cannot express how much I am thankful for you always being there and talking my ass into being strong. I really do love you and fuckkk, I miss school with you already. We better have a girls night out to get my mind off of this. Thank you for always lending your ear, making me a stronger person, and always helping me hold me self-confidence. <3


02. Dom, You just popped into my life, and although I just met you, maybe this can blossom. We've planned and things haven't worked out where we can see each other -__-, but thanks for listening to my crap. "I wanna hear your voice!" Hehe :D We needa watch Up together.


03. Alec, you make me laugh.. and even though I haven't seen you in forever.. It's always nice to know that when we do meet up.. it's like we saw each othe yesterday. That's BAM bestfriendship right there. Thank you for talking sense into me. You've known me forever, and I'm glad to have you as the best guy I've met. You can be a sarcastic dick, but hey.. it's funny and it cheers me up. I will always be here for you and thank you thank you for being there for me. You've got some deep shit inside of you that I know is beneath all the harsh sarcasm, which is just one things I'm glad my best guy friend has. You really make me face reality because you know I can handle it. Thanks <3


04. Nicole, we just met this year and you are practically my sis. We are pretty much bitches to each other, but inside.. I know you love me as a best friend and I love you too! :D Thank you for letting me vent to you and believing in me. We can achieve a lot together.. including making fun of Monica's talking nonsense. Hehe =) Looooove you

& To those of you who have been there to cheer me up, serenade me, pick up my ass when I fall. Thanks for being there.. especially this month. I probably wouldn't have survived it without you guys. <3

Wishful Thinking

Today has been fun. In the morning, I went to St. Chris's graduation for Class of 09. Aren't they precious... Not! Hahhh. I had a really cute dress on today, and if I might say so myself.. I acessorized it very well! Well, the graduation and what not was okayess. Mary, Giz, and I were talking the whole time in mass. Oh! I also met Bri-Bri's girlfran Gizzface.. she's pretty. The Allen's crack me up. I got to say hello to a few old teachers: Mrs. Smith, Mr. H, Ms. Espana, Coach Rick, and Ms. Strok. Mmm, I do miss those teachers... but high school life is much better for me.

After, I played for the 5 o'clock mass at St. Martha's then chilled at home. I need to make a summer to-do list! Oh, and Seventeen Magazine has this whole workout thing for your whole body to have a good body before school.. but whatevs, the routine looks so good I think I'll use it year-round. Ohkay, I'm gay -_-. Haha, but I need to get my ass in shape.

So I have no life and I re-did my whole blog. Whoooop

& Numbered thoughts for tooooday
01. Containing excitement
02. Repeated dresses heehee :)
03. Singing, singing, singing
04. "What-ifs"
05. Amidst everything, they still find happiness <3
06. Kelly Cutrone!
07. Bob's Big Boy yumminess
08. Sarcasm
09. Hoping for an upside
10. Deceiving disguises
11. Quick and easy
12. "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."
13. Annoying, but taking that chance.
14. Misaligned stars
15. "Save Me"
16. Texting all day
17. "I wanna hear your voice!" Heehee :D
18. WASTE. OF. MY. TIME. = YOU
19. There's a cutie out there and he's calling my name.
20. Stanley & his gf are too cute.
21. My Romance.
22. Discovered and whoknows.
23. Patience, calmness, justdoit.
24. Well, we learn.
25. I want OUT of this city.

Dear My Future Lover,
I would like you to love me with a love that will never end. Occasionally, I know there will be fights.. but I do not want the same thing as every girl has. I would like a boy to prove me wrong that all the guys there aren't like the one's I've dated. I would like drama to be nonexistant in our relationship - just you and me and no one else. Trust me with all your heart; and give me your hand to walk through. Be there for me when I have my downs and be proud of me and support me in my accomplishments. I want 100% good sweet loving, not just a partial of it. Love me with all your heart, and convince me that love is worth it these days.

I've got the...

I've had "Brown Eyed Blues" by Adrian Hood in my head all all all day. And I'm determined to make a piano/singing cover if I succeed or not become lazy. -_- Haha. Well, I did nothing today but stay home and then celebrate for Kristen's promotion. Maybe having time to yourself and wander and think aimlessly is a gift (according to Kelly Cutrone from "The Hills" and People's Revolution), but I wish I lived closer to VG or something.. Living closer to the girls that I've gotten close to. I'm getting sick of this city.. Overstatement, maybe. Maybe, not.. My mind's unclear nowadays. I feel like everyone here is the same. Ohhh, wells. But otherwise, today's been relaxing..

Next week I might start basketball summer league at Lucy's! Mmhm, I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I think it'll be everyday.. but at least I'll have something to do. I've just gotta keep moving and learning.


If I had a jam sesh like this.. dayum, that'd be killer:
"The Brown Eyed Blues by the Brown Eyed Fools" Hahahahahha that made me laugh. AJ's pianoplaying is ahhhmazing. Randolph sounds incredible here. Andrew's harmony is sooothin.



I wish I had a really nice voice :[ That's one thing I can work on in the summer.. I'll watch a buttloada youtube vids and get techniques! Yee yee. Hope that won't be an epic FAIL hahaha

No numbered thoughts today..
I'm too lazy heehee :D

my fucking phone just reset itself. -_- okay. thanks for reading! :)

I've got the brown eyed blues...

Last Day

Last day of school and indeeed, I finished with a bang! Yeeyee. How?

99% on my religion final yesterday
93% on my history final yesterday
101% on my math final today (!)
& I didn't get my score for PE -.-

Okay, so this morning I felt a little better.. my dad gave me two medicines for my cough&running nose; I sleep in the car; and I wake up and I literally feel dizzy. I've never felt soo.. eh -.- I felt high! Whooo. Well, I still felt high during the math test.. but eventually I got through it. Whooop.

What went down today:
01. Dizziness... it's not even funny. -_-
02. Someone had a panic attack during the math final. o_o
03. Oh Bencomo.. I hope I get him for art! Ha
04. PE love, camera whoring..
05. Goodbye St. Lucy's 2008-2009
06. The Shoppes with Teresa, Emily, and Nicole
07. Foreva eva eva 21 at the Shoppes <3333
08. Smmmmmmmms.
09. Monica's house

I was supposed to go to Taylor's today.. but I got tired and I didn't feel well yet, so I just stayed home and rested.

Thoughties:
01. Dizzzy as fuck -___-
02. Amy Winehouse!
03. I'm gonna miss this next year.
04. Spanish rooms in the morning, no more.
05. One step at a time.
06. PE lovin
07. Final goodbyes
08. Hello summer!
09. Forever 21 at the Shoppes > Forever 21 at Puente Hills
10. I lovelovelove my friends.
11. Have you ever thought of this?
12. "Just as long as your love don't change..."
13. Sing-alongs
14. Me encanta Jesus! Haha
15. "What ifs" ....
16. Moving forward, not backward
17. Summer 2009, what will you bring?
18. The hate the fucking weather.
19. Rudolph still =[
20. Sleeping late & sleeping in!

Hello to Summer 09, Goodbye to Freshman Year

Finals today? Eh, whatevs. I just want this year done already.

I'm really.. gonna fucking miss everyone. Like honestly, these girls are the things I look forward to every morning. I've met some people who have became really really good friends, even besties (fo lyfeee !). I can tell these girls anything and to know that during the summer I won't get my daily dose of them.. sorta depresses me :( Lol. I've been through so much this school year.. but the one thing that I'm really sure of is that I've gained is 200+ friendships. Good memories this year and fuhh, I can't effing wait for sophomore year.. Well, actually I can because looking at my schedule and stuff, I think next year will be a bitch. But.. that's okay because going to an all-girls school really ain't that badd !

So, tomorrow's finals are: Math and P.E.
I heard the PE Final was hard -.-

So what happened today?
01. Religion final - hopefully I think I did well.
02. History final - ooh, I'm just anticipating my grade.
03. Spanish final - fml -.- But, I think my overall grade will still be an A.
04. Half-day!
05. Didn't feel well.. Naptime!
06. Physical = funny doctors.
07. Non-stop studying
08. Plans for the weekend
09. Chillin
10. Tissues and a red nose the whole day =[[[[ Damn coughs and running noses!

My thought bubbles:
01. You are sucha sweetie ;)
02. Don't answer
03. Gonna miss this
04. Being sick makes me grumpy
05. Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer -.- =/
06. Responsibility
07. Realization
08. Headaches
09. Not a good influence
10. Not my problem.
11. Venting clears thoughts.
12. Tempted to...?
13. Taking my final bow.
14. Moving on?
15. Reminiscing
16. Oh '12 <3 Viva la roja!
17. "I'm tired of this city."
18. The damn same.. the damn same.
19. Just get over him.. He will NEVER do you any good. -.-
20. Privacy
21. Open your eyes for once.
22. To the future.
23. Yeah, right.
24. I dwell on it too much.
25. I'm a hott messss! ;) Hah.
26. You're missin out.

I really did think a lot today...
I really don't know about the future.

P.S. Someone make me chicken noodle soup/ramen/something yummy! :)

Gentlemen don't kiss and tell.

Hi, I still have the damn worst sore throat ... okay, not damn worst, but sore throats bug the fucking hell out of me! :[ You don't even know. It hurts to talk. =/ Oh well. I'm hoping Vicks [Bicks] will do me some good tonight. I love the smell of that stuff.

So today? Basically yesterday I studied my ass off for this big English final and I end up getting a 90%.. eh, I really wish I did better but I'm okay with my grade. Overachiever & geek, I ammm.

Thoughts are sort've running through my mind, but most of my mind is preoccupied with finals: The Great War, Jesus of History - Christ of Faith, Sadducees, Pharisees, WWII, The Cold War, Ho Chi Minh! Lol. Oh, and espanol final is tomorrow.. but I'm whatevs about that right now -_- Hah.

Thoughties:
01. Still hasn't gone away! -.-
02. Using time wisely
03. Could what * said be true?
04. A chance ... maybe, not.
05. Still sticking to my opinion and I don't think I'll change soon.
06. Kristen Stewart is awkward ... in a good way!
07. Oh Rob Pattinson.. you do make me smile on the inside.
08. What the fcks going on?
09. I'm just gonna stay out.
10. Until God means to let it come to me.
11. I miss...
12. Will this blossom?
13. Finish it with a bang.
14. I Dig. <3
15. Non-stop.
16. Warm, cold, & repeat.
17. You put up a personality that I can see right through.
18. Please don't fall.
19. You're deceiving, and people just fall for it.
20. Just like any other.
21. I love The Hills. Just change my ethnicity to Caucasian :) Haha

Stacatto

So, today? Just doin my duties.
-Internship at Kaiser
-asked my dad if I can have a lil shopping spree with the $ I've earned
-played piano for Confirmation at St. Chris

These days.. I've been really wanting to see the future, because as of right now, I don't know what's going to happen. If this sweet talkin really will go a step further during summer, if I'm going back to square one, if I'm gonna attempt patience even more.. I want to know my future, so that I know what to let go right now in the present. Things have changed drastically in a course of 2 weeks: my outlooks, opinions, attitudes, moods (ooh, especially moods), assumptions. Every aspect of my life just changed. I've never experienced such indecisiveness in my mind. Summer for me is starting this Wednesday, and ... if I really have to, I'll let go of that past and start all over again.

Going through my mindd:
01. Routinely
02. Glad to know you're living the good life..
03. Text ditching gets on my nerves.
04. Mm, shopping really does take my mind off things. $$! :]
05. Stacatto, with no emotion
06. Constant texting
07. I should just wave a white flag.
08. I should just let go.
09. I wanna move... new life, please.
10. Thought #09 was harsh. Overstatement, maybe?
11. "God does everything for a reason" is a hard concept.
12. Indecisiveness.
13. It's now or never.
14. More Than a Title
15. Grudges.
16. "Which liquor am I?" Hah
17. Up and down and up and down and up and down etc