Not Gonna Lie

I'm not gonna lie. This week was probably the worst. I don't experience bad weeks as a whole.. but this was mos def one of them. Some problems one day which last till today, a reeeeeaaally painful pain-in-the-ass headache the next, TOM the next.. I'm not gonna lie.

Heh, but today. One of my friends cheered me up. :) It was quite cute. I vented a little, then he asked if I wanted him to cheer me up. I agreed, just 'cos I was pretty irritated at the time. He sang some really corny songs on the guitar. But it was funny. Haha. :) It did sorta cheer me up ! I'm glad I gotta chance to talk to him today... or AIM him, whatevs. Lol. I didn't really expect it. It was nice =]

Oh & I talked to my big sis. Haha. Her stories crack me up. They're so interesting. =]

I haven't seen them both in a while. Haha, well I hope they're good.
It's makes me smile how I have good friends by my side.
God is good !

Lates.

'Mofack!n Flu Season

Bad Starttt ;
So, this morning I got a sore throat.. And I mofackin hate these damn things. I know, they're not a big deal.. but I would rather have something else. I hate how it feels. -__-; So I go in the car and my Blackberry was being stupid from yesterday night. So, I tell my dad that I have this sore throat thang, and he suggests these Vicks (Bicks ! Lol.) cough drops. So I take two and my throat feels better, but I get the worst damn mofackin headache I've ever had. -___-. Baddd thang ? Lasts allllll day.

Gettin Better ;
Got my Blackberry Storm to stop being all gaaaay. Alg 1 Honors.. English 1 Honors.. Blahblah.. Gay classes. So World History E Block comes, feeling like shit still, and yepyep, I knew Rowland lovedd me ! She nominated me & Nicole for this national leadership thang, which was pretty cool of her. The test was aight; I hope I did well on it. Break, Spanish, blehh.. & then mass for Ash Wednesday, which was pretty cool. Alotta people recognized me at the piano which made me feel pretttay special :) Ha. Then PE & Religion.. Which I got a 98 on my test, booooyaaah ! So, good ending, but still had that dayum mofackin headache !

Went home, took a two hour nap; woke up better; parents are the best during these sorrtaaa days; mofackin hate being sick. It's like I don't wanna do a daaammmn thang.

Ok, I'm out. I needed to vent my sick ass in a blog -_- lol. Lates.

Today's Confirmation Class

So today in Confirmation class, we were talking about forgiveness. Being that I've been in a Catholic school nearly all my life, I've learned the cliches with it.

"Forgive and just forget. Everyone deserves a second chance. People can change. Open your heart and see it their point of view."

But do we really live by this quote everytime the going gets tough ?

I know for some fact that for me, forgiving is one of the hard challenges in life. 'An I'm not just saying that to be cliche. At times, I know.. I gotta admit that I'm one to hold grudges for a while.. but it's just because it takes time for me to think, contemplate, and forget about the situation.
During Confirmation class today, Lawrence asked us to draw pictures of people we absolutely don't like. Hehe, I won't say who. So, Lawrence brings out a covered dart board, we put our drawing on it, and dart the picture. I gotta admit.. It did release a lil sumthin sumthin from inside, haha. It did for just about all of us in class. So, after we all did it and had a discussion, Lawrence takes off the covered dart board, unwraps it, and there on the dartboard is Jesus portrayed with the most serene countenance holding a lamb.

And all I could think was.. "What the hell did I do?"

Whatever you do unto others, you do upon God. I don't think it's a sin to dislike someone.. I think everyone has some inner savage at one point. But, to throw darts at this person.. throwing darts at God.. Nah, that's just.. wrong.

& So.. the lesson for today.

" Without forgiveness, it's like holding on to the past. You don't want to be 13 years old when you're 30 ! "

Another Good Weekend.

What another good weeekend ! It was fun, and so here's to me wrapping it up.

Friesday - Sayydieeeees. Chris & I went to CPK before Sadies and got a free pizza 'cos our first one was burnt, haha. The actual dance was alll right. We took some professional photos that I'll be getting tomorrow at school. The DJ was pretty whack; he played some gay songs that weren't even worthy to dance.. that's why we need some asians/flips to be our DJ ! Lucys is so white, haha. Mmmhmm, it was sorta weird when I came in 'cos we came around 8ish and I had this whole entrance and like a crowd around me saying hellos. It made me feel sppeeeecial ;) Haha. I love the girrrrls over there. My daily dosage of love ((: We danced a lil and sat around. Eh, I really wish I went to Homecoming or Winter Formal, but Sadies was okay.

Saturrrday - Gmorninngg at 8 am -_- for piano lessons. Then, Chris & I played some badminton and basketball and Shadow Oak. Ahh, I'm really getting into bball again. I needa practice for next year. Badminton was pretty fun too, ha. We just played on the tennis courts. x] At 330, I went over to Ariana's for her partayyy. Dayum, Upland does some badass shame to West Cov and Walnut. It's so niceeee there. Freakin perfect. Haha. Well, we went on scavenger hunts around the city and this first team back would get some Starbucks cards :) Mmmmhmm. So we did lotsa crrazy thangs like burger king crowns, put on a "point bra" and pose in front of a main street statue, wrap yourself in a mummy in fronna Albertsons.. Funfun ! Haha. Then we went to Downtown Clairmont to eat at Pizza 'N Such. We chilled around her house for a while, ate red-velvet cupcakes (mmhm !), and took some pictures with her Mac. Ariana has one hella nice house !? Haha. Then, after I went homeee; Chris came over & we watched Seven Pounds.. sad sad sad. But, good day good day.

Annnd today, just another day. I didn't feel like going to Lifeteen 'cos I gotta do lotsa projects.. which I should be doing right now. Haha, I will.. soon ;) Anywhos, whatta good weekend. & can't wait till next..

BAM Day on Sat !

Admittance

So, these past two days.. I've been fussing over some stupid things, and I've really got to admit that I've been ungrateful. It's kinna amazing how I can eventually open up to my mom about this, and from there, she consults my dad. My mom's pretty hard on the world; she always thinks it's looking out for yourself, or else you're not gonna get what you want. But my dad is contrary. He's pretty understanding and says that you just needa be forgiving and learn to be patient with the world. What do I think?

I don't know. It's sort've hard because you look at both perspectives of my parents and you conclude that they both have good points. The last two days, I've been ungrateful for things he's done for me. I know I was expecting more, but really.. it's the thought that counts.. and I know many women out there would love to be where I am right now. It's just hard though.. It wasn't really a big deal, but somehow.. I made it one.

I tried reconciling today. I gave him a "B" necklace which I bought at Kohls today. I remembered sometime.. like a month ago.. he said he wanted one. I hope he wears it.

I hope that the relationship still remains strong.
I hope I remain strong spiritually and emotionally.
I hope I remain dignified.
I hope that these next two months will strengthen us for one year.
I hope we remain beyond our one year.
I hope our love will last.
I hope for us.

10 Months & Valentines

Just an overview:

Friday, Chris & I chilled at his casa for a little bit. Then, we went to Puente Hills to eat at Max's with his ate & her boyfriend. We met Grayson & Theresa after we were done with dinner. Oh, and I saw Jessica! <3 I haven't seen that gurrl in forever! Anyways, we basically had like a mini-road-trip, if that's what you call it. We didn't have any $$, so we went to Cue, but we realized we had no money for that -___-. So, Chris drops something off at his house, then we drive to "the range". It's up at Pacific Palms, and there were two really pretty spots overlooking the city lights on a golf course. I really loved it; it was such a beautiful sight. Best of all, it's free! [= It's like you're on the top of the world or somethin. It started to get late, so Grayson drove me home. Whatta nice day.

Today, Valentine's Day. I woke up with my dad at 9:30 to make Chris's cookie cake and "Sadies?" cookies. It turned out pretty good; i'll post some pictures up later. It turned out reall nice. Around 1:30, I went to Chris's casa and chilled for a little bit; he sang some songs on the uke to me.. Then we went to Shadow Oak to take some cute pictures.. Walked back, and asked my dad if we could hitch a ride to Brea Mall to see some of BENMMMM. Turns out only Monica (and her sadies date), Megan, and Emily were there. Chris bought me a shirt that looks sort've like his. Chris went shoe-shopping with me. I realllly wanted these cute heels, but dayum $70! So, we go home and go to Puente Hills to meet up with his titas and then go home. Today was pretty chill. It took me a lot of thinking to do that cookie cake and stuff, and I'm glad it paid off.

Some of the cookie cake photographs:

And my inner gut just -sighs- ... Oh Valentine.

Back on Blogspot

Hi, so, I'm back on blogspot, because I feel lonely on tumblr. Hehe (:

An update since I've last blogged:

• I'm pretty much really relaxed with all aspects of life. School has just been the same for everyday. I miss Megan lots :( I'm doing pretty well in all my classes, which I'm happy about. I needa keep it up ! Haha. English is killing me, though. I haven't been doing as well as I have done in the past on tests, but it's okay. Just as long as my grade's still an A, I'm good overall [:
• PE we're doing badminton ! Whooo, I'm getting so into it that I bought a set at Target. Anyone wanna play? [:
• BENMMMM just ain't as close as they were before. I think I sort've hold the group together because if not.. it would be sort've split into two groups. We really needa chill sometime ! I haven't had much time for friends on the weekends.. I sorta feel guilty about it. But, I'm gonna try to get everyone together.
  
• Valentine's Day & our 10 Months is this weekend ! Friday the 13th for our 10 months :) Ooh, that'll be sorta spooky. I'm sort've excited, just 'cause it's my first valentines with someone. I don't really need it to be over-the-top. I'm just looking to be extra loved that day :) I don't know what we're doing that day, though.. But, maybe we'll go somewhere after the gifts are exchanged.
• The 18th will be one-year since Papa died :'( During Career Day, my second class was Respiratory Therapist. It reminded me of what Papa went through. I'm sort've thinking of that profession, but I'm not sure. I miss my Papa... I hope he's having a good time up there with God. Ahhhh, man. It's so hard to believe. I can just remember last year during January and February. I miss him. God, please take care of him! I know you will. I love you Papa.
  

Gonna go download some music. Latteessss,

Prayers requested: Jennifer Boulahoud's recovery, Obama, my Papa, B&C, Chris Brown and Rihanna, Mother of the Octuplets, Working Families<3