Gday, maaaate

“I don't know why women want any of the things men have when one the things that women have is men.” -Coco Chanel

Ahh, hello blog & readers [: Today was a good day.. but in a since, it's not gonna be a good day because I won't be seeing my babe for the weekend. Oh wells... I hope I did well on my math & spanish today. Screw W.H. ! Lol. Fuhreakin Nicole -_-; Lol. Well, today was actually fun though.. Gay, I know.. but school has really built some reaaal sturdy friendships; ASB & BENMMMM. Mmmm, love them.

I've been having some doubts rise within me. I miss the old days with us.. ]: I sort've yearn for more.. attention and affection. Gddamn, do I sound gay? I'm sorry.. But, I really missed when he would give me those lil notes & have us all over his myspace. Those lil thanngsss I miss. Buying me lil thangs when we go to the mall.. Looking at me, I ask "What?", and you just shake your head and smile and saying "Nothing.." =] (aw, that was my fave..).. Leaving me voicemails in the middle of the night.. It's sort've hard to believe that we've been together for almost a year.. and no doubt do I love him. I'm just not ready to get used to. I still wanna be that lady that will blow him away at the sight of me. Gddamn, I sound corny. I'm loveeesick, babes. Luvv Sic.

So, I was talking to Alec tonight on the phone and dayum, do I miss him! Still the same ol person as always [: BAM day, March 21st ! Hopefully, hopefully.. I pray.

This weekend will be interestinggg. At last minute I didn't want to go on the retreat because I'm just.. not in the mood for it. I think I need time to myself for a weekend. A time for old friends, good lovin bonding, and family time <333 I plan to be real productive this weekend.. working out my legs for summer, baby ! Haha.. Working hard for all of them tests on Monday.. & trying my best to keep up with the world.

Prayers are requested for Mrs. Charles.. it's absolutely awful & tragic what happened to her son and her daughter-in-law. Much much MUCH love.